straightisboring

Well actually this is the first time that I have ever felt like this before.  For anyone that has tuned in before, we will start back where I lose the first real love of my life.

Why did she leave?

Like in most classic cases — I never got one straight answer.  Since this is a learning session.. we can’t leave out any details.  The general reasons started with, “I don’t want to be in a relationship anymore.”  Then later moved on to things about be being too needy, jealous and us fighting too much.  I don’t even know what the real reason was but before I knew it she was dating some man she had been hanging out with until at least 4AM in the morning as I was at our home crying because I was worried if she was okay.  To say it was shady is an understatement but she claims there’s a great reason behind it all.

Over six months later I am still dwelling on it.  SInce I have had to sign up and jump through the hoops of getting a new account and realizing that JS is no more… my everything is gone so I no longer have to write about how I came across our 1 year anniversary card which left me crying for at least 30 minutes..

I need to move on to embracing real life because I am drifting farther from it everyday.  This sad love story will be continued.