Well actually this is the first time that I have ever felt like this before. For anyone that has tuned in before, we will start back where I lose the first real love of my life.
Why did she leave?
Like in most classic cases — I never got one straight answer. Since this is a learning session.. we can’t leave out any details. The general reasons started with, “I don’t want to be in a relationship anymore.” Then later moved on to things about be being too needy, jealous and us fighting too much. I don’t even know what the real reason was but before I knew it she was dating some man she had been hanging out with until at least 4AM in the morning as I was at our home crying because I was worried if she was okay. To say it was shady is an understatement but she claims there’s a great reason behind it all.
Over six months later I am still dwelling on it. SInce I have had to sign up and jump through the hoops of getting a new account and realizing that JS is no more… my everything is gone so I no longer have to write about how I came across our 1 year anniversary card which left me crying for at least 30 minutes..
I need to move on to embracing real life because I am drifting farther from it everyday. This sad love story will be continued.
Jenepher